Tuesday, October 12, 2010

aaaaand MORE ceramics...

After spending Sunday morning playing for Cornerstone Wesleyan in Scott City (my new job), I relaxed to about four or five cathartic hours in the ceramics studio. I'm in the middle of several projects right now:
This coffee cup says "Teacher" in Hebrew. It's a gift for a friend.





Last week, we were assigned to come up with some sort of large bowl with at least 3 pounds of clay. This wonky bowl is made from five pounds. I was going to scrap it when it first went off-kilter, but I've been learning that unless you absolutely can't stand the sight of something you've made, it might be best just to keep it and turn it into something unique.




These small coffee cups are pinkish in color because they have been bisque fired, which removes all of the water from the pieces. The bisque firing is the first firing, before the glazing and the second (final) firing.

The following pics are of coffee cups (and a bowl or two) that have been bisque fired, and I have begun experimenting with glazes. I really like drizzling and splattering, as opposed to straight dipping.




This is a communion plate. If you look really closely, you can see the Jerusalem Cross stamp I used to create a pattern around the edge. 


This is probably my favorite cup. It's one of those "fortunate mistakes." As I was obsessively trying to perfect this cup (which was originally a pretty good cup), I accidentally pushed too hard on the walls and threw the entire mug off balance. Rather than scrap it, I just kept it. I like the wonkiness. 


This is also a rescued piece. It was originally a honey-pot-looking coffee mug, but it fell off my ware board and smashed against the wheel--however, it made an almost perfect spout. So it's going to be a wonky cream holder.






This was my first "pinch pot," a bowl made by (you guessed it) pinching a piece of clay into a bowl. I thought putting lips and teeth on it would be fun. We'll see how it turns out...


Next week: Some pictures of how these pieces actually turn out (quite different from the way they're pictured above, I'm sure).

Thanks for reading!

Peace,

Joshua

Monday, October 11, 2010

Flying Geese


I think this is the first poem I've posted here. Unleash on it. Show it no mercy.



Flying Geese


The tag says
the name of the pattern is
Flying Geese
sewn by the hands of Indonesian women.

Sitting on the bed, the quilt stretches away
in a series of interlocking isosceles triangles
white toward me
black away
like flying geese
and I recoil cross-legged (Indian style?)
against the nonexistent headboard.

It's not that a quilt is a lousy metaphor
for human existence and diversity
(it is)
It's not that the triangles
are such solid representations
of some feared or beloved triune deity;
My anxiety does not rest here.
The geese, honking and flailing,
assault and fall back,
a guerilla phalanx of my own
fears and misunderstandings:
white toward,
black away,
flying geese.

The shove
not passive
but violent:
Black away,
Flying geese,
White toward,
geese in flight
and my retreat into
my sage walls.

Sunday, October 10, 2010

Music Sunday

This week, my friend Matt introduced me to a guy named Noah Gundersen. Specifically, a song called "Jesus, Jesus" from an EP released late last year entitled Saints and Liars.

Caution: the following song contains graphic lyrics.



What do you think of the lyrics? What questions do you think are raised? I'd love to foster some kind of discussion.

On a more shallow note: is it okay to curse when opening your heart to Jesus? I've noticed this debate a lot lately, and usually when the topic does come up, Derek Webb's name gets mentioned.



So:

1) Is it ever okay to question Jesus and his followers in art? Can anything positive come from this? I personally love Gundersen's song. What do you think of it?

2) Is it ever justifiable to curse when talking about Jesus? Even if it is the language written on your heart at the time?

Hit me up with your answers.

Peace,

Joshua

PS--Today is 10/10/10. I think I'm going to have a party tonight at 10:10.

Saturday, October 9, 2010

Creativity and Spirituality (Part 2)

This is the second part of my essay on spirituality and creativity. Let me know your thoughts!


It is rare in our culture to see creativity integrated so well within the context of the Church. It is far more common to be met with an attitude that communicates to others that life is life and church is church, and never the twain shall meet. However, spiritual creativity is holistic—it affects not only the spirit, but the body, mind, and heart, as well. For instance, food shortages and nutrition have become global issues, as well as the protection of our struggling environment. In recent years, sustainable living has become a growing interest among those disenfranchised with the rising tide of the so-called “green revolution.” One solution advocated by—but not limited to—Christian grassroots organizations and intentional communities is experimentation with private and community gardening. Birthed out of a “fast food nation” in which the average American adult can simply run to the nearest Wal-Mart and purchase cheap frozen pizzas, community gardening has opened a new perspective on food, health, and the environment in both rural and urban areas. In a Christian context, many communities have discovered the creative and spiritual link between care for the environment and our bodies and the calling for faithful care of God’s creation.  Christian intentional communities have met a problem (the growing global food crisis, global warming) and produced a reasonable, small-scale solution from their human (and God-given) gifts of creative problem solving.
“What’s this?” I asked Jason as we toured the block, indicating a fuzzy, fluffy-looking plant sprouting from the Hyaets landscaping.
“That’s lamb’s ear,” Jason replied. It’s a handy household plant to have around; you can eat the leaves like spinach greens, but it’s also used medicinally, like aloe. Put a strip of lamb’s ear on a cut, and it heals almost twice as fast.” How fascinating! In what universe would this be considered common knowledge? Jason and the members of Hyaets are bringing in something new and useful through their creative spirituality, inspiring the community around them to exercise their creative gifts.
I say all this not to belabor the reader with my passion for community gardening or New Monastic intentional communities, but instead to illustrate the fact that when creativity is real and organic, it is inevitably a spiritual event. My time in the monastery and my experience with this course awoke something within me that was already there, but lying dormant—the very nature of creativity and education; discovering something you already knew about yourself, but drawing it out and looking at it with new eyes. The brothers and fathers at Conception Abbey may not be building clubhouses for neighborhood children (though, for all I know, they may very well be growing lamb’s ear), but their spiritual creativity manifests itself in different ways—namely, in the creative process of education.
In our exercises with one of my professors, we were tasked with discovering our “vocation,” or our “quest.” I was forced to think about what exactly brought me to seminary in the first place. Sitting in the classroom packed with fellow CREATE cohort members, I felt vastly out of place among brothers and sisters who seemed—by my perception—to be of the charismatic personalities which lead to pastorships and other leadership positions within the traditional infrastructure of the church. But this has never been my quest, or my calling. The more I meditated on this notion of quest, however, and the more I fell in love with the daily liturgical prayer and simple lives of the brothers and fathers around me at the abbey, the more I began to sense that God has something different, something new in store for me. A spiritual idea born of creativity.
I left the course with—I do not think I can overstate this—a completely altered view of what my life pursuit will be, and my conversations with Mark (who happens to be of a mindset very similar to mine) since then have only served to embolden me further. Each subsequent conversation has left me feeling much like Chief Dan George’s character in the film Little Big Man, who claims, “My heart soars like a hawk.” My role in life is not the role of pastor, or of youth pastor, or of church council member or finance chairman. After leaving the abbey, I discovered that my true vocation is to start a monastery of sorts. A New Monastic community in the Kansas City area called Anavah House, from the Hebrew word for humility, or discovering or knowing one’s place in the grand design of God’s creation. Once I rested in this notion of vocation, I gained a renewed fervor and quest, and all the pieces of my life now seem to be making more sense. I have fallen in love with the potter’s wheel through a class I’ve been taking at my university—this is subsequently a skill that can be put forth as a creative way of supporting the community once it establishes itself. I have spent years studying community development and gardening, as well as developing interpersonal skills that define me as an empathetic person, understanding of the needs of a group of people. And as long as I can remember, growing up in the United Methodist Church I have been fascinated by liturgical prayer, communal worship, and contemplation. Through this class, all of these pieces of me have come together at last to make a little clearer the integrative whole of my vocation and place in the world, and I am chomping at the bit to get started.

Friday, October 8, 2010

Broken Bottle Mosaics and Lamb’s Ear: Connecting Creativity and Spirituality (pt. 1)

The following is part of an essay I recently wrote about my some of my experience with New Monasticism, and how the NM movement  embodies the union between creativity and spirituality. Enjoy.

            I arrived at Conception Abbey with my friend Mark, along with something I can only assume was a mutual mixed feeling of uncertainty and eager expectation. Seminary is a new phenomenon to us both, and neither of us fit the mold of typical seminary students looking for M-Div degrees and pastoral roles within congregations. It was, for us, a chance to find our centers and renew our hearts and minds. But I left the abbey with much more than recharged batteries.

My initial understanding of creativity (a very basic understanding, to be sure) involved taking one idea, fusing it with another, and synthesizing the two to produce a third idea, completely new and independent of the first two. A caveman discovers that by hammering rocks together, sparks occur. By positioning the sparks over an area of flammable material, a fire can be kindled. And by building a fire, it becomes easier to cook and ingest meat, which in turn gives Caveman more energy to hunt more meat to cook over more fires. This understanding is pretty cut-and-dried. Not necessarily a bad definition, but still somewhat incomplete.
But I have found that creativity is more than just synapses firing and connecting one thing and another. In many ways, creativity is useless unless it leads to innovation, beauty, and growth. A person can have a good idea, but that idea is worthless without action, and that action—by what I’ve gathered through reading scripture, as well as Roberta Bondi’s To Love As God Loves—is useless without love as its primary motivation. Interestingly enough, it was less than two months prior to our time in the abbey that I spent a single day in fellowship with a new monastic intentional community in Charlotte, North Carolina. It was that day, after stepping off the bus in a remote, economically and socially disparaged part of the city, that I first began to draw the beautiful connections between spirituality and creativity. The Hyaets Community draws its name from the Hebrew word for the “tree of life” found in Genesis and Revelation—a symbol of initial and continuing creation. The project began a few years ago as an attempt to build a bridge between the contemplative lifestyle of the Desert Fathers and the compassionate active lifestyle of experiencing and meeting the needs of marginalized people suffering on the fringe of society—what better example of the creative spiritual process than this? 
Jason Williams, the leader of the community, led us on a tour of the small, three-house block, pointing out the art and construction along the way. Earlier this year, Hyaets became the recipient of a recent CBF grant that allowed them to build a small clubhouse where the neighborhood kids (many of them so-called latchkey kids) could hang out after school. But rather than simply throwing together a “shed” where the kids are “kept,” the community rallied a number of local churches for the project:  one church to build the clubhouse, one church to paint it, and still another to design an intricate mosaic (made from bits of broken glass and other trash) to decorate the façade of the building. In this case, the initial motivation of love (desiring to fill the needs of the neighborhood kids) led to a physical aesthetic (the building, the mosaic). This in part illustrates a very basic sense of the connection between spirituality and creativity. However, it may—and, I feel, should—be stretched further to include perhaps a more important non-physical aesthetic: the aesthetic of the impact on the community as a creative congregation. Conceivably, more beautiful than the physical mosaic is the transformation of the lives of the children impacted by the existence of the clubhouse as a safe place to gather. The clubhouse then fosters more creativity within the children, who in turn may in their maturity go out and begin the creative cycle over again. In a New Monastic setting, this creates the perfect balance of tension between the contemplative life and the active life.

Part 2 continues tomorrow.

Thursday, October 7, 2010

Politics

I shared this with my friends earlier, and got some decent conversation from it.

I am neither conservative nor liberal--in fact, while I may have what many call a more "progressive" understanding of scripture, I prefer to remain neutral when it comes to politics, unless of course the issue extends into the teachings of Jesus (taxes, for example: no matter how hard I work for it, the money isn't mine; it's Caesar's. Therefore, I should have no qualms giving it back to Caesar. Jesus calls us to greater things).

However, I was reflecting recently in particular on the American political philosophy of conservatism and how it fits into the teachings of Jesus. Not saying that the American political philosophy of liberalism is any better, but it occurred to me that the philosophy of conservatism is self-  and family-centered. It's all about my guns, and my rights, and my money, and what the government is doing to intrude into my life. Is this not a fair assessment?

There is an equally harsh judgment on American liberalism: for me, at least, liberalism is too wishy-washy and manipulative to accomplish any real good. We squabble over making the most amount of people happy, when in reality we lose sight of the goal that Christ has set before us.

I was discussing whether or not it is okay for Christians to join the military tonight with a (very conservative) friend of mine, and it struck me as odd how much he came back to argue about how the military has fought for "our" freedom as Americans. I feel that surely there must be something greater at work that binds us together not as nationalists, but as human beings all over the world.

The divine banner and the human banner do not go together, Tertullian writes, nor the standard of Christ and the standard of the devil.

Is this "standard of the devil" perhaps what we might consider partisan political activism?

Even more disturbing is that I have discovered that people are going to believe what they want to believe, and if this is indeed the case, no amount of intelligent, rational dialogue is going to make them understand. Do Christians ever have the right to call other Christians out? Or is this "you worship your way, I'll worship mine" mentality a uniquely American understanding? I say this because (my mom has pointed this out to me many times over my life) I can debate a topic until the cows come home. But I see that people tend to get more ferocious and less rational when they are backed into a dialogical corner, and I guess this makes me fear that almost all respectful debate is useless.

I'd like to know your thoughts.

Peace be with you,

Joshua

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

Like our facebook page!

I'm currently researching how to become a registered 501(c)(3) organization--it's complicated!

In any case, you should at the very least head on over to facebook and check out Anavah House's facebook page. "Like" us to stay caught up on the entire development process of our community. Hopefully, sometime in the near future you will be able to donate funds to Anavah House to help support our community and ministry!

Thank you for all your prayers, and if you have any comments or suggestions for the community (or if you would like to join us in our great adventure), please pass them along to me. My email address is joshuapaulsmith88@gmail.com, and you can contact my phone at (573)-576-0840. 

In the coming months, I will be sharing the vision piece by piece as it develops, and I am so excited to pass it along to you!

Peace,

Joshua